Thursday, March 14, 2013
Even though today was a good day, I still have an uneasy nervousness about Saturday. Not that I think it’s going to go bad, it’s just the thought of “will I be able to do my part well? Will I be able to race to the best of my ability that day? How am I going to feel?” Today being a good day didn’t really help that unsettling feeling. Probably because it’s one of those “calm before the storm” kind of days. I’m not even guaranteed to race on Saturday, but I see it as I likely am.
This feeling is kind of normal for me and I honestly hate it. I hate doubting myself and having unnecessary fears about a race. It’s probably because I just feel some pressure since I haven’t gotten into 5:20’s this track season (except in December) and I’ve just been let down in that race. At this point, I just want to work so hard everyday and abuse my body into exercise until I get under 5 minutes for my mile. Call me crazy, but that is how I feel right now. Not that I’m actually going to train that dangerously ( I know better than that), but I really just have this drive and I feel obligated to get under 5:30 at least. There’s no reason I can’t so why can’t I?
I know everything I just said totally goes against what I posted yesterday, but I feel like I just had to put that out there.
To end on a happy note, one of my former teammates came back from college today and ran with me and some others on the trails. It was a pretty good run with good weather and friendly conversation and made the day better.
Run Time: an hour?
Mileage: 8.4 – ish