I’ve been holding off on doing a post for a while because, well, nothing’s really happened since the last post. I didn’t want to write more of the same about how much I love running or how much running sucks at the moment, but I figured that I better write something today.
Since the last time I wrote, things have really just been the same, which in this case, is not a good thing. I’ve sort of built up my mileage again, although I still have yet to hit 50 per week, and I’m still burnt out. Perhaps it’s not actual burnout but I’m just not motivated to run as much as used to be. It sucks because I feel bad about it too. It’s not that I want to be unmotivated because, if anything, I really, truly want to be motivated. But for some reason, I’m not. I’ve decided to suck it up and run, but even then I don’t how much good that’s doing me. Maybe the answer isn’t to suck it up.
What sucks the most is that it’s my Senior year of high school and my last year of Cross Country and Track. I’m tasked with being a leader and a role model for my other teammates and I really want to be that for them. However, this slump or plateau or whatever you want to call it is holding me down. I’m tired of being unmotivated but I don’t know how to overcome it. Maybe I need to take a longer break or something but I don’t think I have time for that right now.
I know I’ve written similar posts like this before and I hate being redundant, but it’s where I am right now and the point of this blog is for me to document my “running journey” so I figure I better write something. Thanks for bearing with my sporadic writing schedule and rants.